When class is boring...

I'm soooooooo madly in love with this cover right now! it's just soooo perfect. 

Thaqif, your voice is perfect..

I was actually fired up cos I was just done with reading Dayang's blog.

Gatal sangat nak bace abeh saket hati sendiri. BODOH KAN?!

So anyway... This song soothed me and I felt better.

Cos while listening to this, I thought of the times me and baby had..

And all the laughters.

Going thru a slow flashback of these 10months never fail to make me feel better.

Of course there were times where we stand there questioning "Why am I here?"

But those times just passed after we threw back the anger. (:

Noone says this would be the perfect relationship.

It's a bittersweet one and it's ours (: 

I never fail to love you every single day baby.. 

Ouh.. And not to forget...

HAPPY 10TH MONTHSARY BABY!!!! ♥

Today marks our 10th month of being together...

Thru these 10 months, we've gone thru lots of lesson that has to be learnt.

And I really appreciate everything that's done with and for me.

I apologise for all my bitchings and PMS(s).

But you just can't blame a girl for being a girl right?

No matter what, I'll still love you only stronger and stronger day by day.

I love you will all my heart baby.

And never have I planned my future without you since the day we've been together.

I miss you baby..

Mwaaaah!!! 

I Love You Fendi Kamal! ♥

No point making life perfect.

It's been quite sometime since I last blogged. But maybe today I should.. Cos I just feel the need to.

I'm just wondering.. What does it take to be a good gf?

I know I don't have EVERYTHING that a guy look for in a girl.

But don't I deserve a chance to be pampered?

When I tried to be abit 'manje' just to get a lil sweet attention that I crave for, he'll say that I'm childish and like a kid.

Sometimes I do wonder where do I stand in this relationship?

And why is he in a rship with me?

I know he used to say that actually he's not ready for a rship.

And he feel like we rushed into this rship too early.

And that he said that it looks like I syg him liao and it's already like 'terlanjur'. Sooo if he wanna back out, macam tak baek kan. 

And he grew to love me slowly..

Sooo... Every now and then when I thought of that, I feel remorseful.

I know he loves me now and we've gone a long way.

But it's just that teeny bit feeling deep inside.

He's always being egoistic and gets worked up over every single tiny stuffs.

I do get worked up too (more than him and worst) but I do have my PMS.

Can't blame a man for being a man I guess...

But sometimes when I see other couples being very sweet and stuff, I do get jealous.

And I feel that I'm being too soft at times. And also too overprotected.

Sometimes I'm afraid of saying things that I feel should be voiced out cos I'm afraid of losing him.

Sooo some things I do keep inside. And whatever issue I raise will lead us to a huge massive arguement. So might as well forget it right..

I also feel bad every now and then cos I've neglected my friends.

Come to think of it, I feel VERY, VERY bad.

They've been there for me thruout the years I'm single or going thru any kinds of shits. Helping me in any way they could.

And now, when I already have someone to lean on, I just chuck them aside like an old record.

I really feel like a sore loser. 

Maybe my bf just feel like he''s got the power cos he's older and he's the man in this rship.

And I'm always sooooo insecure and sooo afraid of losing him.

Sooo maybe he feels like if I do anything, he can just poke me with my pasts and flaws to make me lose the arguement. And I won't drag the arguement for too long cos I'm just too afraid of losing him..

Well, that's what I thought laa.. Dunno if it's for real or not.

Thru these 10 months, I've been very confused and patience tested.

Too much lesson learnt and heartaches. 

Maybe this is what it feels like to be in a long term relationship. Especially with a fucking egoistic guy. 

These are parts and parcels of life anywaaay.

My life already suck, so why bother making it perfect?

I'm new to this long term thingy. Sooo.. I still needa get a hang of it.

Slowly but surely I guess..

Patience is virtue.. Patience is all it takes. 

Patience and perseverance..

Blogging in school

Whoaaa... Blogging in school feels so different..

I feel like I'm still stuck in secondary school.

Cos now people don't really use blogger y'see.

i feel so the KENTAL! Haha.

But anyway.....

Just now was NAPFA 2.4KM.

We're supposed to run 6 rounds around the stadium.

I did NOT run thru out the whole 'journey'.

Did some slow jog, some motivation for my fellow classmates and alot of walking.

But I managed to complete it in 22:40.

NOT BAD~

Just baby~

Soooo.... Today I met baby early for breakfast at AMK central.

i had chicken congee which wasn't that awesome.

And baby had Yu Mee; idk wtf is that.

But it looks nice though.
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Anywaaay.. Just now went makan at Seoul arden with gendud bestfren.
The most expensive treat she ever treated me.
Soooo sweet ley my bestfren (':
We te and stayed there for 2hours and half.
We're bloated like piggies liao...
Skali went out of Seoul Garden(Taka) only got the strong urge to poop!
We rushed home just to shait! hahaha.
But overall, it was an awesome meetup.
Love my bestfren ❤
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And then baby came down to AMK like about 9plus..
Cos my ezlink in his bag.
Poor thing laa my baby need to come here after a tiring day.
But then right... I take back my sympathy.
Cos he say I'm PERAMPAS MATAIR ORANG!!!
*boyfriend snatcher lor*
I've never snatched anyone's bf before lor.
Kaneina chibei ahhhhh.............
I know it's merely a joke but it's fuggin offensive laa can...
But then after that we were okay. After a packet of paddle pop.
He's just so adorable.
I still dunno why he's just so charming and just so hard to resist.
I love you alot tau baby.
And eventhough you act like a fuggin asshole most of the time, I still love you so much...
Indeed, more and more every single day I'm with you.
Just don't ever call me a bf snatcher even if it's a joke.
Cos I didn't snatch nor steal you away from HER.
We FELL for one another.
I sayang you Fendi Kamal.
Wanna meet you soon pweash.
Miss you alot liao.... )':
And why you replying my sms soooo slow?
Haiyo.. You really trouble-maker ah you.
But nevermind laa..
You and 'Abg Kamal' also same.
Both got a fuggin big rock in their heads. Hee. *sorry*
You're my mischievous sinister baby boy. ❤

Riding Dirty~

Sooo... Today, I met baby quite early. Like about 9plus AM?

He went to Amk Poly to get an MC for today's leave.

He waited 3 figgin hours just for that stupid 5mins consultation. 

I just waited for 2 hours cos I was one hour late. Heee.

Aaaand after that we head down to my house and just... Hang around?

LOL!!!!
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I don't feel like continuing my post.
 I just feel like crying. 
Why must he be so fickle with the way he treats me?
Why can't he just be consistent?
At one moment, he's all lovey dovey.
And at another moment, he just acts like a fucking douchebag.
What, have I asked for too much?
I'm so jealous of other lovebirds.
It's not that I'm not happy with him.
Yes, I am very happy and I love him alot.
But.. I'm sure every girl have their own fantasy of the Dream Rship.
Guess that only happens in fairytales..
Anyway, baby just called me and didn't really talk much.
But eventhough I was kinda pissed at him, when we were goina hangup, he asked me 101 questions and I don't get that everyday. So, I think it was kinda cute.
See, even when I'm pissed and we argued, he never failed to make me smile and giggle to myself.
That's exactly why I love you so much.
Cos you're simply annoying and extremely adorable and lovable just by being
You.
You're the best thing that I've never knew I needed. 
Thankyou for being here for me always.

iloveyou Boyfriend ❤

My first post

This is my first post. But since I'm soooo figgin shagged, I'm just gonna upload some pics. 
Just for fun ^-^

I've always dreamed to set foot @ Paris one fine day...

I love BUBBLES sooo much!

I love balloons MORE!!!                                            

I love my dearest fatty bom bom bestfriend who've always been there for me thru thick and thin and thru every hardship and happiness..

                                                                                                                

But above all, I love my one and only baby boyfriend; Fendi Kamal ❤

Never felt anything stronger than this.

He's been making my yesterdays, makes my todays and will be making my tomorrows.

I love you baby bontot (:  ❤